the lack of sun is wearying, since i'm trying to gear up to hopefulness. the interview tomorrow looks promising. just the thing, it would seem. i was referred by someone who likes me very much, and i think i really want this. yet the disappointments, the bait-and-switches and the dickheads still loom so large.gosh, i really have had a lot of interviews. i've been over-qualified, or the job is a step backwards and they wanted me for marquee value, as little more than a baby-sitter. why work someplace i would never eat in a million years? where they offer nothing i have interest in pursuing? where i already know i hate the customers? where everybody knows it's a hell-hole to work? where my personal life will get devoured by 5 or 6 nights of closes? could i live on what they offer? it really has been stoopid. months ago, i made up my mind to not talk myself into something i knew i'd regret. i had enough reservations about the last place and they were well-founded. in 30 months those foul demons have turned and burned 12 managers. ridiculous. yet i'm stuck in a place of knowing far more places i won't work, than places i might.
as for tomorrow... he's creating a new position. will it be perfect? hahaha, uh, no. however of all else, this truly looks like what i wanted to do *next*. we shall see if it really is.
i am at the end of my rope for poverty. i am tired of deciding whether or not to spend money on the "t" or to stay home again for god's sake. it's impossible for me to consider getting a car at this time, so that other avenue of employ remains closed. last fall, i really thought i'd be all squared away by now and up to snuff financially. instead the hole gets deeper monthly. ack.
ok, research and numbers to wow the entrepreneur bright and early. they're predicting sun for tomorrow. let's hope so, eh?
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